You know how sometimes you get in a funk and can’t figure out what the problem is? I have been feeling like that lately and my family is starting to notice. I am not blogging as I should.. sure you get posts each day, but very few of them are coming from me.
Today, I woke up at 6:00 as usual to start my working day and I have done a million things in the few hours since, but I never wrote one word of a post. I have a super long to do list and just keep putting off the posts that I need to write. I am not sure why… I just don’t “feel” like it.
My house is a disaster, I haven’t 100% finished my shopping, and I haven’t fixed my hair in a while.
What’s the point? The house gets messy again, do people really need hundreds of dollars worth of gifts, and my hair needs a cut so fixing it takes too long!
Well, as I was sitting here listening to Karmin on Pandora – I just put my head on the desk and started to cry!
I am feeling yucky and I am ashamed! I am so stinking lucky in my life!
I have the best kids around!
All of my kids are basically healthy – They get colds, broken bones, etc. 1 has Asthma, 1 is allergic to everything, and the other one is like a broken bone/sprain magnet. But, all of that is simple stuff that is fixed very easily! No surgeries, no major illnesses, no fatalities!
They are all honor roll kids – My kids get lazy at school work, but they are smart and it tides them over to keep their grades up until they get out of their lazy phase and get back on it!
They are all compassionate – My kids genuinely care about each other and others. They ALL hug me and tell me they love me every, single day… even my 13 year old! They look out for each other. They fix snacks for each other. They THINK of each other!
All of them are helpful – Sure, I sometimes have to ask a couple times and they certainly do their share of whining. But, my kids help around this house! They pick up, they do laundry, they do dishes, they empty trash cans, they do yard work! It doesn’t take threats or punishment… they just do it. Many times they do it without me even asking.
They are usually respectful – No, my kids are not perfect! They try to push our limits, but 99% of the time they treat me and others with respect! I don’t have to worry about my children being rude or disrespectful at school or to their grandparents.
My Husband is Fabulous!
He works his butt off – My husband does many things to put a few extra dollars into our bank account in addition to his regular job! He coaches Baseball at the High School level and football at the Middle school level. He doesn’t make much, but even a few hundred dollars extra helps! He spends his Summer as a referee at the local Baseball Park. He spends some weekends cutting grass around town. He makes paracord bracelets. He is always on the look-out for another way to make some money.
He is my equal – My husband has never once made me feel like housework is MY job. Though I am the one that is always home, he is the one that does 90% of the laundry! He doesn’t have a problem cooking or cleaning toilets.
He helps with the kids – From the day we brought our first one home from the hospital, my husband has been the one that gets up in the middle of the night most nights. He is the one that gets the kids up in the mornings and ready for their day!
He LOVES me – Though I am soooo much bigger than I was when we were first married, he still makes me feel pretty and sexy! Still, after almost 14 years of marriage, my husband flirts with me. He makes me blush and makes my stomach do that little quiver thing.
And there’s plenty more!
My parents are still together (celebrated 40 years this month), still healthy, and only about a mile away from me!
If ever needed, I have plenty of people to call on, from family to friends!
We own our home and can pay our household bills each month.
I have a dream job and it is actually starting to make me some money each month.
So, what is my problem? Maybe it is the typical winter doldrums… but, I think it is time I snap out of it. No more feeling grumpy or down-n-the-dumps.
I am lucky! I am so stinking lucky!
For those not so lucky, my prayers go out to you! My prayers are with the entire town of Newtown – I don’t know how anyone can make it through this devastation!
The death toll is at 28 and 20 of those are children… little children! How? How can they deal with this senselessness? How can the friends and family members.. how can the parents mentally survive this?
What about those who’s kids survived? How do they handle the guilt? How do they handle the trauma the kids experienced?
As a nation… what can we do?
What was so mentally wrong with Adam Lanza, supposedly a quiet, Honor Roll student from a well respected family, that would have him crack like this? Never even had a brush with the Law… How can we prevent others from doing this? How do we put a stop to all the senseless killings?
Go.. hug your kids!
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